Sorry for the radio silence folks. I had a rough go in April and May and I needed June to just be me. To turn it all off and take some time to just disconnect. No need to worry though. Everything is A-ok and we are back at life with a bounce in our step.

The good news is I learned a lot during my little internet sabbatical. I spent a lot of my time turning in, tuning in and really doing some soul searching. I started this blog as a creative outlet and a way to help me – for lack of a better term – find myself. I wanted to discover who I was, where I was going, what I was supposed to be doing, and to find voice and space. I wanted to find a spot to nuzzle up and dig in. But as time went on I wasn’t getting any closer. I wasn’t figuring anything out or having any ahah moments. There were no revelations worthy of mentioning. I was spending a lot of my time wishing and wanting and comparing myself to others. I wasn’t focusing in on my journey, but instead spending way to much energy trying to find and follow the paths and courses of others. And that’s the thing. You can’t and shouldn’t travel through someone else’s journey.  No one else is you and that is awesome. We all all different, special and unique. And I am unique. But it wasn’t until recently that I realized that. I’ve always been told I’m “different” and in life sometimes it takes you awhile to realize that different is exactly who you want to be. Different is special and you should be focusing more on that rather than trying to be something you just aren’t molded for. I am different and you are different and our paths and courses in this life should look nothing like anyone else’s. And that my friends is a gift. A great gift. Be you. Especially since that’s the easiest person to be.

There is this thing called fear and man can it be a downer. I’m not talking about the scary movie fear, but the kind of fear that holds you back, holds you down and has you question and gives you doubt. But I feel like talking about this fear and how it has held me back would be worthy of a post of it’s own so let’s skip that for now.  Just know I’ve been working to release my fear. Mostly, my fear of failure. So what’s been happening. Well, I wish I could say through all of this great discovering I was magically transported and transformed and that I’m on a path to greater things, but that is not necessarily the case. Don’t get me wrong I’m headed in the right direction, but I’m learning that this is also a lesson in growing. My new path has been a little like having a rubber band wrapped around my waist. I take five steps forward, stretching myself and reach the max of the rubber band and then get whipped back to the start. But this is ok. I feel like one day I’ll either learn to ditch the rubber band or that sucker will reach its max tension and snap and I’ll run off into the sunset with my arms up in the air to the Rocky theme song. In the meantime I’ll keep working away, putting one foot in front of the other. Getting baby steps closer to my goals and reaching for my dreams with more gumption than ever.

Let’s take a minute to talk about one of those dreams and goals. Because I’ve heard when you write them down and speak them out loud they tend to manifest.

  • I want to own a shop. I have wanted to own a shop since I was 12 years old. And I’m pretty sure that dream goes back way further since Ive been told that I used to force anyone willing to play “store” with me. Playing store and really playing store are two different things though. And although I rock at the make-believe versions I have no idea how or where to start in this here real life version. But just like everything else I’m taking baby steps. But since I’ve filled you all in on this little dream of mine if you know any shop mentors, consultants, people with a brain full of shop knowledge who wouldn’t mind taking on a gal like me let me know!

So what does all of this mean for this blog? It’s not going anywhere. I’ll still be here. But I’m no longer going to try and make this blog something it isn’t. Just like me it’s going to be different. I’ll still bring you fun information, diy’s, inspiration and honest conversations and if there is something you’d like to see then let me know! Oh and let’s talk our house and recipes for a minute. The hubs was feeling a little left out! So we started a both of us blog so that he can play too! It’s up and running, but I haven’t put together any posts yet. If you want to follow along with our home renovations, cookings and ramblings of our little homestead we would love to have you. I’ll give you all a heads up when the first post goes live. I also have some other projects in the works and we will see what comes of the future. Stay tuned, friends.

If you made it through this entire post I give you a gold star!!! Thank you for letting me ramble and taking time out of your day to listen. And remember…

Be You!



1 comment :

  • Erin Reibold

    Yay! I earned a gold star ;). Oh, Rae. I love you and I haven’t told you that lately and I’m sorry. Not sure what you’ve been going through my friend but as soon as I see you, I’m going to give you the biggest hug ever so be prepared for me to not let go! …and then I’m going to take that rubber band off your wrist – ouch! -luv u

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